Let’s Give This Another Go

I read a blog entry I wrote January 29, 2009 — here’s an excerpt:

There have been times when I looked back and wished I hadn’t done something.  I hope this isn’t one of those times.

I never realized how difficult it would be to open yourself up to public inspection.  Especially with something like this.  Right now, I’m feeling a little nervous.  Though, I’m also excited for what I hope to accomplish.

At this point, my goal is to eat better and exercise.  I assume weight loss will happen as long as I stick to those two things.

Now, nearly a year later, I’m 60 lbs. lighter and I feel great.

However, on February 10, I set a goal of 180 lbs. by June and that was never reached.  On June 3, I decided I wasn’t going to worry so much about a specific number, as much as I wanted to look and feel great.

I don’t think I’m there yet.  Even though I may have been called a sexy beast:

See what I mean? jk

While I may have “fallen off the wagon” — ( a few times on purpose, I LOVE HU HOT!) — I need to re-focus and do this for myself.  A year ago, I had no idea how this would turn out.  I was scared, nervous and feeling a little hungry.  But it happened.

I did reward myself for reaching small milestones (Summer 09)

Since then, I’ve accomplished the following:

• I can run a 5k in about 30 minutes.
• I can walk up the stairs without feeling winded.
• I can do over 50 consecutive push-ups.
• I have gone from a shirt size XXL to a medium.
• I have gone from a jeans size of 38 to 32.
• I actually enjoy eating salad.

I know I can do better.  And I’m going to push myself to get there.  Lately, I’ve just had a little trouble getting my motivation engines started.  Maybe it’s because it’s so cold out.  Or maybe it’s because I’m comfortable where I am now.  But I’m definitely not *happy* where I am.

There’s just a little bit more to go.  And I’m determined to reach it.  This is not so much a resolution as it is a goal that I need to reach.  I’m doing this for myself and no one else.

Stay tuned.